Gay and confuzed.

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Comment by Goofy Butt on June 1, 2009 at 5:45pm

Regarding above comment: Friends: F-R-I-E-N-D-S! OK? Sorry. I haven't been spelling long.

Comment by Goofy Butt on June 1, 2009 at 4:14pm

Also, if you're not out yet, you might want to check out PFLAG (Parents and Freinds of Lesbians and Gays). There may be a chapter near you. Many volunteers with this organization are the parents of gay kids who have dealt with this situation and might be able to help you. I had a friend online who was kicked out by his parents after his school principal notified his parents about an incident involving him and another boy in the shower. He contacted PFLAG (pflag.org) and a woman (with his consent) talked with his parents and arranged a reconciliation. The parents had thought he was dead and greeted him and his new boyfriend with open arms.

Comment by Richardd1 on June 1, 2009 at 12:56am

I tend to agree with Goofy Butt. It would be nice to know a little more than your page says, such as are you in High School or College? Are you out or still in the closet? I am going to respond on the assumption you are still in High School and still in the closet. I also live in a small town in Mississippi. When I first moved back here after being gone for many years to our farm which has been in my family since the late 1800's (my great grandfather and grandmother helped found the county and town where I live now), I was in the closet initially here. I moved from Houston, Texas where I had been completely out in all respects for many years. To go from that freedom back to the closet was a cultural shock to me to say the least. However, as time progressed, I slowly came back out here. Not completely mind you. One has to work and make a living. But I live in a rural setting out in the country and now all of my neighbors know I am gay (they refer to my house as the "gay house".) We speak, wave to each other when driving by, etc. help each other out during emergencies. I don't feel at all threatened by any of them.
One way that I began to meet other gays in the area was through gay.com (I really hate giving them any kudos). The internet is a great resource for anyone these days and especially gays and lesbians like us that live outside of major metropolitan areas. That is where gay.com helped. It allowed me to meet online gays that lived in the surrounding areas to me and even some that lived in the same small town! I will say at this point to be very wary of first meetings with anyone from the internet! ALWAYS arrange to meet in a very public place (such as a busy mall, coffee shop in a surrounding town). Get to know the person in the safety of others. As you get to know them and your comfort level increases, you can make some good friends this way. Not everyone on the internet can be trusted and should be trusted, just as not everyone you meet in real time and places can and should be trusted. Rely on your gut instincts!
If you haven't come out yet and are considering it, there are a lot of things you need to consider before doing so. There is an excellent article on coming out posted on my personal web site which might help. Here is a direct link to that article (www.richarddavis.us/comeout.html ). If you wish to chat further please feel free to contact me. Good luck!

Comment by Goofy Butt on May 31, 2009 at 4:53pm

My suggestion to you is to get out of there as soon as possible, as millions of other young gays do. Think about relocating to a major city where you will be among people like yourself. I live in NYC. I think most of the people who come to New York City are running away from something or somewhere. I am constantly amazed when I go to one our Gay Pride Parades. They are usually last 4 hours or more, with floats and zillions of gays and lesbians celebrating. And there are hundreds of thousand of others watching on the curb. (I'll add some photos to this site that I took last year.) Celebrities (actors, singers, politicians) celebrate with us and march along a lavender line painted down the middle of Fifth Avenue. It's second only to Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. The parade winds down in Greenwich Village where there is dancing in the streets and on the pier and fireworks!

Fortunately for you, there's the Internet which a lot of us didn't have when we were your age (assuming younger).

UNfortunately, there are gay haters everywhere, even in the big towns. But the times, they are a-changing. I've seen amazing changes in just the last few years. When I was young, you stayed very quiet about it, and coming out almost always meant isolation. I've read and heard many horror stories of kids being thrown out of their homes after coming out or being outed; living in cars and friends' basements.

This site is good place to start - for meeting someone close to you. Someone like you who feels what you are feeling. Don't give up. The ONE constant in life is change. Things will get better, I promise you. The best is yet to come. Don't give up five minutes before the miracle. It has been my experience that when you're not looking, you turn around and there he is. I'm sure there are many people at this site who share your situation and they too, are looking for someone. Hang in there.